The Only Company I Need

Your soul tells you so much but you won’t listen

You soak it in wine and will it to change

Fighting the answers you don’t want to hear

Societal advice tells you to hold on, it’s just life

You look in their eyes; the absence of light tells you all you need to know

Inner resonance or passivity;

Adventure or complacence

Alanis Morisette rings in my mind…

Your role is to be a mother, he’s doing your job for you. The least you can do is sit down and be quiet. Show a little appreciation. What’s wrong with you…

Why do I fight so hard to deny everything inside when he’s everything I’ve never wanted and more?

I’m there when these sweet boys want to play, to wrestle. To read a goofy book, to have fun. To ask me if boobs grow forever…

As much as I fought to not be a mother, they’re still the best thing to ever happen to me.

Cowboy, don’t take me away. I’ve got this. I’m going to sleep under a pillow of stars in the middle of nowhere, alone.

I’ll fly higher than I’ve ever known into the skies above.

I’ll be the only one for miles around.

Sweet soul, set me free, set me free I pray.

Show me the way home, to the answers I need.

I want to lie on the ground in the middle of summer

I want to dance with the autumn leaves

Embrace the winter chill

I don’t need a cowboy

I need to be alone with the wind

And the stars, the sweet summer moon

Swirling solo with the chill in my hair

An eternal song in my soul…

The only company I need.